On the first day of my “dream job”, I was so excited I barely slept. I got to work early and sat in my car 30 minutes before I was supposed to start. Of course I was excited. My “dream job”! I was going to be a Social Media Specialist. I would get to design posts and read and write blogs and track analytics and immerse myself in social media marketing. I had always wanted to make a living by being creative. This was exactly what I wanted!
At first, I loved what I did. I’ve always loved to write and be creative. But it started to change. The scrutiny and the pressure become so great that I was afraid to create. I had lost all confidence in myself. I was lost. I was unhappy. After years of managing my anxiety to a tolerable point, I was having intense anxiety attacks regularly. I cried in the bathroom at work. My IBS flared up so badly I could barely eat.
I prayed about my situation constantly, but I still didn’t know what to do. One day, I prayed to God for strength. I just meant the strength to get through the day. Instead, He gave me the strength to leave that job.
That day, I walked away from my “dream job”. It felt so discouraging to leave something I had wanted so badly. Now, I don’t regret it one bit. A week after quitting, I got called in for an interview to my current company. They promoted me from receptionist and office assistant to the sole Operations Manager after only two months. Yes, it still blows my mind.
Leaving my “dream job” is probably one of the greatest things I’ve ever done for myself. That might sound weird. Life is really confusing all the time. Growing up is hard all the time. But most importantly, God is good all the time.
We can make our plans, but the Lord determines our steps.
Proverbs 16:9 NLT